Cynthia K - Bet Your Bottom

Posted by: Cynthia K

May 30, 2004

When will this gloomy weather stop? Everytime I think it's about to get warm, it starts raining and my anticipation for summer is thwarted, once again! Shortly after I sent in the first part of these pictures, things started getting overly dramatic and weird again with the boy I was seeing last year. My flatmate suggests he has a strange power over me, mostly because he accounts for a fair portion of my sexual experience (he is the one with me in all of those videos on my website), and because I am not aggressive enough. I did get more comfortable with him though, and felt more in control, or else I certainly wouldn't have done all I did with him (nor would I have ever let him near my bottom with that thing!). Part of me fears that my lack of experience resulted in less than great sex for me, though I know I rather enjoyed it. Now, with the rain coming down in droves, I've had plenty of time to sit inside and obsess about it! I appreciate much of the advice I've been given in feedback and emails, and hopefully if my confidence remains in tact I may take control of the situation. I sometimes think my optimism is foolish, and I know it makes me a total dork, but to channel my favorite musical, when I'm stuck with a day that's gray and lonely, I just stick out my chin, and grin, and say... come on, surely I'm not the only one who appreciates the charm of Annie? LOL